daringtobe's Diaryland Diary

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Round and Round

My mind is tired�it whizzes and whirls all day long�thinking, determining, planning, dreaming��I am more often than not, some place other than the one I am in�If you don�t know where you�re going or what you�re looking for�do you think you�d know it once you got there? I am not so sure anymore.

What I thought was real is fake, and what was easy - is forced now. I have come to discover Life isn�t something you choose, its just something you do.

Its like those merry go round wheels at playgrounds, when you were kid and someone spinned it too hard - you were torn between hanging on out of fear or jumping off and possibly causing bodily harm to yourself. Sometimes the choices we have suck. Life is like those playground wheels. Personally I prefer swings, you have more self control.

PS�my Mom is getting worse with her drinking�I am scared, worried and angry all at the same time�I wish someone could take these feelings away � I don�t want them anymore.

1:09 p.m. - 2003-07-17

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