daringtobe's Diaryland Diary

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Still Thinking About It......

It simply amazes me how I can fuck things up without even trying. Which is mind boggling compared to the stuff I fuck up intentionally. I sent someone I was trying to impress an email recently and it appears that the attachment that I put with it had a virus. Well ain't that great! They emailed me back asking what the hell I had done....I emailed them telling them sorry....they probably haven't gotten it yet...there PC has exploded by now. Of course I will take this, internalize it and start hating myself even more. I don't know why I try sometimes. I can see why some members of society become morbidly obese and spend their lives in bed. Its the things that you do with good intentions that do you in....everything turns to poo in the end. Boy - I sound chipper don't I!

I just hate the fact that I caused someone stress...and they think I did it on purpose. Oh well....I am going to quit obsessing on this.....but I keep thinking about it.....I am still thinking about it....

I'm going to take a pill and go to bed.

Talk to you later!

7:26 p.m. - 2003-08-06

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