daringtobe's Diaryland Diary

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Beyond Self

I have taken solely breathing out of my mouth to the next level. Since I have lost the ability to breathe successfully out of my nostrils and ears are so plug it sounds like the ocean in my ears. I do however like how it makes my music sound in my car...it felt like Paul W. was sitting right next to me this morning on my way in.

And I realize now, that I am older then I was before, that the more self absorb we are the more shallow and trite we sound to other people. I had a friend tell a long time ago, that she felt mental illness was just an excuse for someone to be selfish about themselves. I don't agree with that (since I am mentally ill and that would make me selfish!) But on the other hand....you can only talk and look at your life so much....and in the grand scheme of things, how important are we individually? I mean I know that I will never invent a cure for cancer or save someone from a burning building (I don't run very fast) - so - its time to look beyond self.....

7:45 a.m. - 2003-12-05

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