daringtobe's Diaryland Diary

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sigh....................

The level and the sheer volume of my knack for acting stupid is simply out of my control. I will continue sticking my fingers in the fan blades of life no matter how many times I get cut.

It all really has to do with "a guy". A guy that I know is shallow and does not give one flying fig about me but who I keep going back to even though it could possibly destroy the sanity I have tried so hard to maintain in my family life.

Luckily, I do not believe my recent actions will be develop into anything. Just me, making an ass of myself.

I would like to blame it on my need to have someone, physically close to me, to connect with. I have met the most coolest, deepest, amazing people here in this land of diaries but alas none of them are here for me to see or touch. I need the touch. So I keep reaching out to those around me that really, when you come right down to it, aren't touch worthy.

Sigh................

9:23 a.m. - 2004-03-11

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