daringtobe's Diaryland Diary

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Angry

I am so angry today.

There are several reasons why I am so angry...

First of all I overslept. I hate it when I do that.

Second my husband left the kitchen and the rest of the house in a huge mess. The man simply cannot clean up after himself.

And thirdly - here is what someone said about me - or women like me:

Yah, I got the skills. For some reason incredibly creepy, skanky, ugly women are drawn to me and want to get naked with me......I'm getting really good at vomiting.

This is from a gentlemen that I had called my friend that I was slighty interested in. He is not a good looking man by any means so his above comments surprised me as well as hurt me. He sent the comments to someone else, I don't know if he really meant for me to know about them.

What amazes me is the absolute meanness of people.

Everytime I get insulted I go back in time.....

When my parents divorced my mother and my two brothers and I lived in a gross two bedroom apartment. I rode the bus to and from school and around that time I weighed pretty close to 200 lbs. Plus I had stringy hair and bright blue Elton John glasses. I was a looker let me tell you!
Anyway there was this beautiful boy that used to ride my bus named Phil Forte...he was a twin and his sister's name was Phyllis. Original, huh.
Anyway, one afternoon on the bus home Phil and his friends got on the bus. I was setting by myself of course, us uglies like to keep to ourselves. Phil and his friends looked at each other and then Phil sat in my seat.
I was flabbergasted. He preceeded to rub my hand with his finger and talk nonsense about how he always had noticed me and wanted to get to know me better. I wanted to believe him so badly...but I looked up and his friends were laughing....and when I looked at Phil he had begun to laugh too.

After that he got up and moved to the back of the bus with his friends.

That was just one of the many times I felt like chewed up gum on the shoe of life.

I never want to feel that way again....and somehow I have managed to find an asshole in sheeps clothing that did it to me again.

Fuck.

8:33 a.m. - 2004-12-07

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