daringtobe's Diaryland Diary

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alone

Merry Christmas Eve Everyone!

Mine sucks!

I hope yours does not!

I am going to talk with exclamation points throughout this entire entry!

not really...

I simply cannot maintain that much enthusiasm.

More bad news about my Mom don't want to get into it but she was pretty upset and my Dad is drinking heavily and quickly become an asshole.

We are going over there tonight for festivities which means forced smiles and fake joviality for all.

You know yesterday was bad...but at one point I felt so alone.

I don't know if you get this way...but surprisingly enough I'm a good listener...people in my office, people I hardly know, family members, confess to me and confide in me. They come to me with their problems and dramas and I help them and console them and make them laugh.
Yesterday I tried talking to three different people about stuff that was bothering me and not one of them made an attempt to listen.

one of them was my husband.

This is what makes me truly sad. This is when I feel alone.

This is when I KNOW I am alone.

And on that note...

Merry Christmas!

7:53 a.m. - December 24, 2004

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