daringtobe's Diaryland Diary

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Bring on the New Year

Christmas only sucked marginally.

It was still pretty frustrating.

Husband was a complete jackass.

Anytime you feel like bringing up divorce the very night of Christmas, it ain't going good.

Mom was high maintenance and very frustrating. She mumbles and then wonders why no one answers her. And she can be mean and hateful. The holidays don't hold her back one bit. But she is sick and she is my Mom and I don't know how many Christmas's I'll get with her so, I sucked it up and was the best damn daughter in the world.

It didn't help that my husband kept telling me we needed to get going. He wanted to see his family and I understand that but we will be spending this next week with his family and no one in his family is seriously ill.
Needless to say I came very close to saying "Shutup you fat little bastard" several times.

The words, Thank God, never came out of my mouth.

Thank you lord for that!

I did have a anger outburst later on when we got home, and I made a complete ass out of myself. But I think I deserved it.

I put up with a lot of shit from people.
And even though I did not make sense with my angry jibberish and my red inflamed face, it made me feel better.

So I can hardly fucking wait for 2005.

10:42 a.m. - December 26, 2004

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