daringtobe's Diaryland Diary

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Reality Smeality

In classic juvenile high school form I told the "guy" that I was having an affair with someone else.

I had been talking about a guy in the office that I was working with that lived close to my house so I used him....I just got tired of the idea of him thinking that I didn't have options.

I felt about 16 when I did it....I know that he's not jealous and that he's not going to proclaim that he wants me for himself but I get tired of staying in a holding pattern because of him....

Really when you stand back from it it all seems silly - a married woman pretending to have an affair with someone she's not attracted to inadvertently hurt the one person who she wants to have an affair with, but who could care less.

good lord I need to get a life.

oh and just so you know...my imaginary affair is smoking hot!!!!!

7:30 a.m. - March 09, 2006

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