daringtobe's Diaryland Diary

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Bye Bye Love

I had a moment of clarity the other day.

I let everything go.

I thought to myself I have wasted the last 3 years of my life hung up on a guy that does not care for me.

I think he cares on some level but we all know that if felt the same way - I wouldn't be making all these angsty diaryland entries.

so I didn't tell him goodbye like I immaturely have done before...I did the next most juvenile thing...I told him I was moving to Chicago.

God I should have been con man...he has been sending me links to the city and the cost of living diagrams...the poor fool has no idea I've just made the whole thing up.

Sure you are probably thinking to yourself - what if you run into him?
Well I never did before - I mean he contacted me or I contacted him.

So I don't think it will be a problem.

I won't miss him this time.

This time hurt really bad.

This time I saw him finally for what he was....and what he will never be.

So now I have to find a new male for my blind obsession.

I am taking applications.

7:45 a.m. - May 11, 2006

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