daringtobe's Diaryland Diary

-----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------

You Can Have Her, I Don't Want Her.....

I thought I would add an entry since I am having a fat day. Yes I get those days where I feel like a human pimple. It doesn't really matter whether or not I'm fat, I always feel fat, so I will always be fat in my head. I think I am going to stencil chunky monkey on all of my clothing just for the hell of it. And our secretary at the office keeps coming by my desk and talking to me about one of our really skinny co workers - our secretary is a fat woman and is on a slim for life program - and she keeps saying to me, wouldn't you love to be that skinny. What yes I would, but I don't like to think about it every frigging minute you big cow. Hateful aren't I? I am soooo sorry I don't weigh 100 pounds anymore. As you get older you get fatter, end of story.

Okay I have vented now. I think I will say the word fat several times, fat fat fat fat fat - there I feel better. (not really) Oh the shallow emotional baggage we all carry around with us. Sometimes I wish I were a man so all I had to worry about is whether not my penis was big enough.

Oh well......

Fatty Patty is signing off.

5:56 p.m. - 2003-08-26

*******************************

previous next