daringtobe's Diaryland Diary

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Irrational..but not Boring

I'm sorry that I was so pissy yesterday. I become hateful sometimes and I don't know why. Negative energy I suppose. I can behave irrationally.

I am an irrational person. I am not ashamed to admit it. Sometimes I act out and do things at the spur of the moment. Don�t ask me why�but I do know there is a part of me that doesn�t want to ever get too comfortable. I never want to look into the future and see everything mapped out and planned. I�m not saying I don�t like stability�.I�m just saying I hate boredom. I hate being bored when I know there are things in this world that are not boring. Ever. But I�m not going to dye my hair black, or try to be something I�m not to avoid being boring. I�m going to continue to behave and think irrationally. I mean really, why? Who says, besides our parents, that we have to always act and think a certain way? There are some standards and rules that we have to live by for society to continue, like not murdering or raping and merging correctly onto the highway and stuff, but other than that we should be able to do creative things with ourselves. Tattoo our appendages and torsos, pierce whatever body part(s) we wish to, say things that are socially inappropriate, and as long as it doesn�t hurt anyone, no one should really care.

Talk again later.

7:48 a.m. - 2003-08-27

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