daringtobe's Diaryland Diary

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Cocky and Carefree

It is Friday. Yay!

I am looking forward to this weekend. I think I may try and sleep the entire time. Which is hard when you have kids. They occasionally like to be fed and bathed. Actually just fed. Anyway I hope something good is on the TV so I can just veg away the hours. My brain is trying to lead me down the path of self defeating and self destructive thoughts again, and I don't really have the energy to deal with all the crap that I put myself through.
I hate having low self esteem and my anxiety to carry around every day. I wish I was cocky and carefree. Hopefully that will be achieved someday. Plus I like saying cocky and carefree. It makes me feel naughty...
I guess there is something to cheer me up today. It looks like its going to rain soon and I have a new umbrella that has little smiley faces all over it in bright yellow. Now if that doesn't cheer a person up I don't know what can.

(just go along with me on this one)

8:00 a.m. - 2004-10-01

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